| Desiring....................28 | |
| you were to insist simultaneously on two impossibilities, desiring only the advantages and not accepting any of | 4 WORLD WEARINESS |
| reasons, tries to make you doubt the part desiring truth in order to avoid disappointment. The higher | 13 POSITIVE THINKING: THE RIGHT AND THE WRONG KIND |
| who is just living into the day without desiring any spiritual progress. So this is all determined | 16 SPIRITUAL NOURISHMENT -- WILLPOWER |
| should they have come to the point of desiring to go back to God, they would not | 21 THE FALL |
| the impossible, like a child; you find yourself desiring something that cannot be had, or for which | 29 THE FORCES OF ACTIVITY AND PASSIVITY -- FINDING GOD'S WILL |
| and truly accepting yourself as you are, not desiring to appear better than you are, you have | 31 SHAME |
| is to ask yourself about your motives for desiring a certain thing; to ask yourself about the | 39 IMAGE-FINDING |
| for it, or simply in your awareness of desiring such a state, you may have thoughts like | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| them. Let me return to the example of desiring financial security. Suppose you desire it to impress | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| these wrong motives, but at the same time desiring to change, I still feel it is a | 64 OUTER WILL AND INNER WILL -- MISCONCEPTION ABOUT SELFISHNESS |
| mature responsibility, then one naturally feels guilty for desiring the goal. If a person accepts full adult | 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION |
| without it. You do not realize that in desiring to keep your separating wall, you defeat your | 76 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS (Compiled from Private Sessions and Earlier Lectures) |
| and attention. It is not a question of desiring them in healthy mutuality; there is in you | 80 COOPERATION, COMMUNICATION, UNION |
| not the result of avoiding life and still desiring development and progress. Many wish this very impossibility | 91 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| of shedding the habit, in spite of also desiring to do so, you are not forced to | 110 HOPE AND FAITH AND OTHER KEY CONCEPTS DISCUSSED IN ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS |
| they simultaneously stem against the tide of time, desiring to stop its movement, or even go backward | 112 HUMANITYS RELATIONSHIP TO TIME |
| regarded as mature, while at the same time desiring the advantages of childhood. The desire to be | 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES |
| the compulsion to give and the guilt for desiring to receive. He or she is faced with | 121 DISPLACEMENT, SUBSTITUTION, SUPERIMPOSITION |
| though you and everyone else go through life desiring to love, you still block it and find | 123 LIBERATION AND PEACE BY OVERCOMING FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN |
| facing the now without struggling against yourself and desiring the greater truth will make it possible for | 126 CONTACT WITH THE LIFE FORCE |
| rejected; the person in this state withdraws from desiring. As a compensation, the soul strains in self-willed | 136 THE ILLUSORY FEAR OF THE SELF |
| You can be instantly liberated from destructiveness by desiring that which is most constructive at this particular | 136 THE ILLUSORY FEAR OF THE SELF |
| concept with the deeper knowledge that only by desiring to add to life can you experience that | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| unconscious did not exist. You are aware of desiring something. It still does not occur to you | 159 LIFE MANIFESTATION REFLECTS DUALISTIC ILLUSION |
| will discuss the energy movement of wanting, wishing, desiring -- its meaning, its significance in the total | 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE |
| with the soul movements of wanting, wishing or desiring. Everything that exists in human expression can harmonize | 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE |
| the other person, and open your heart to desiring that you see both the good and the | 206 DESIRE: CREATIVE OR DESTRUCTIVE |
| is often totally ignored and willfully denied. The desiring person insists on his or her illusion and | 207 THE SPIRITUAL SYMBOLISM AND SIGNIFICANCE OF SEXUALITY |
| Desirous....................10 | |
| my loved ones, that if you are truly desirous to understand the need and the loneliness of | 12 THE ORDER AND DIVERSITY OF THE SPIRITUAL WORLDS-THE PROCESS OF REINCARNATION |
| can often observe human beings who are sincerely desirous to walk on this path, who are open | 27 ESCAPE POSSIBLE ALSO ON THE PATH |
| my friends. Whoever is really open and truly desirous to find an answer, disregarding all resistance, must | 27 ESCAPE POSSIBLE ALSO ON THE PATH |
| will be made; guidance will come. Anyone truly desirous of spiritual growth will find help; of that | 39 IMAGE-FINDING |
| just to you, for it applies to anyone desirous of helping in such a way. The development | 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO |
| danger, a subtle danger. If you are truly desirous of making the wall crumble, to become empty | 47 THE WALL WITHIN |
| act of betrayal. If you are not truly desirous of examining your innermost reactions and emotions in | 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF |
| for some time, and who have truly been desirous of understanding their most hidden problems, again and | 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY |
| in a displaced form. If you are truly desirous to know the truth about yourself, it will | 121 DISPLACEMENT, SUBSTITUTION, SUPERIMPOSITION |
| you do not know how tense, anxious and desirous you are. I mean a genuine transcendence that | 237 LEADERSHIP -- THE ART OF TRANSCENDING FRUSTRATION |
| Desist......................11 | |
| an irreligious person is already developed enough to desist the desires of the lower self that may | 30 SELF-WILL, PRIDE AND FEAR |
| detail about your way of life. Did you desist at the time from following through with a | 68 SUPPRESSION OF POSITIVE AND CREATIVE TENDENCIES - THOUGHT PROCESSES |
| for you? If it was not, did you desist out of fear or out of dependency on | 68 SUPPRESSION OF POSITIVE AND CREATIVE TENDENCIES - THOUGHT PROCESSES |
| to God. On this one day, he should desist from his ordinary pursuits. If he wishes to | 70 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| the fear of facing the truth about yourself. Desist from living superficially in the sense of satisfying | 95 SELF-ALIENATION AND THE WAY BACK TO THE REAL SELF |
| or all these mixed up together. Often you desist from establishing contact with this channel, even when | 172 THE LIFE ENERGY CENTERS |
| a subtle way. If he or she can desist from the temptation to constantly belabor the obvious | 180 THE SPIRITUAL SIGNIFICANCE OF HUMAN RELATIONSHIP |
| the principle of such meditative practice, nevertheless you desist from employing it. What is even more significant | 208 THE INNATE HUMAN CAPACITY TO CREATE |
| the shame of showing your deficits, you finally desist building on them, and you sail through the | 250 INNER AWARENESS OF GRACE -- EXPOSING THE DEFICIT |
| then truly become a servant to God's plan. Desist from yielding to the temptation to keep yourself | 257 ASPECTS OF THE NEW DIVINE INFLUX: COMMUNICATION, GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPOSURE |
| keep yourself locked up in isolation and resentment. Desist equally from yielding to the temptation to accuse | 257 ASPECTS OF THE NEW DIVINE INFLUX: COMMUNICATION, GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPOSURE |
| Desolation..................3 | |
| a world of icy coldness, icy darkness, and desolation. There are many more possibilities of how the | 21 THE FALL |
| considerable time, that is, experiencing a state of desolation, did a vague longing for something else -- | 21 THE FALL |
| lately a lot of feelings of hopelessness and desolation which I know, at least intellectually, as states | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| Despair.....................99 | |
| lower self is stronger, you believe that doubt, despair, hopelessness may after all be true. Now there | 13 POSITIVE THINKING: THE RIGHT AND THE WRONG KIND |
| to God, as a last resort, in complete despair. As long as it can claim victories in | 16 SPIRITUAL NOURISHMENT -- WILLPOWER |
| as you really are. The moment you hopelessly despair about the lower side of your nature, you | 31 SHAME |
| same fault you become so despondent that you despair of yourself, wishing to give up, and you | 31 SHAME |
| get you anywhere. For as long as you despair so easily, there is too much pride in | 31 SHAME |
| affect your soul. So, my friends, do not despair if you have no success for quite a | 31 SHAME |
| accept one's own faults properly means neither self-abusing despair and discouragement because you discover yourself to be | 33 OCCUPATION WITH SELF -- RIGHT AND WRONG FAITH |
| The sooner you understand this and do not despair when you encounter the negative part that you | 33 OCCUPATION WITH SELF -- RIGHT AND WRONG FAITH |
| outlook is the only truth, you so easily despair. You even forget in such moments that which | 33 OCCUPATION WITH SELF -- RIGHT AND WRONG FAITH |
| shine for me anymore. You may indicate such despair with your feelings even though your intellect does | 37 ACCEPTANCE, RIGHT AND WRONG WAY -- DIGNITY IN HUMILITY |
| shines upon each one of you. Do not despair when you are sad and discouraged, there is | 47 THE WALL WITHIN |
| You do not need to endure blackness and despair. Turn around, my dear ones, and try to | 48 THE LIFE FORCE IN THE UNIVERSE |
| the negative, destructive guilt feelings that make you despair of yourself; self-justification -- the blaming of others | 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME? |
| between the two opposite poles, from hopelessness and despair -- believing that the universe is unjust -- | 52 THE GOD-IMAGE |
| does not in itself push you into the despair triggered by inferiority feelings -- provided your attitude | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| a difficult situation, in hopelessness and longing, in despair and depression, as long as a false God-image | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| short time. So the baby is in absolute despair, which you can observe in a crying child | 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS |
| unrealizable goal, so that each failure causes additional despair and guilt, increasing the feelings of inferiority and | 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS |
| always be happy is not cause for utter despair. One truly accepts that life holds both happiness | 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS |
| make for a bleak world. You need not despair over letting go of a desire and venturing | 60 THE ABYSS OF ILLUSION -- FREEDOM AND SELF-RESPONSIBILITY |
| most constructively, instead of being pulled deeper into despair. On the path of self-search one learns not | 69 THE FOLLY OF WATCHING FOR RESULTS WHILE ON THE PATH; THE VALID DESIRE TO BE LOVED |
| advance by degrees than to give up in despair, saying, I cannot do it all in this | 69 THE FOLLY OF WATCHING FOR RESULTS WHILE ON THE PATH; THE VALID DESIRE TO BE LOVED |
| will not cause you half the distress and despair it caused you before. But as I said | 71 REALITY AND ILLUSION CONCENTRATION EXERCISES |
| incarnation. If Jesus Christ in his hour of despair forgot what he had known, it is even | 82 THE CONQUEST OF DUALITY SYMBOLIZED IN THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JESUS |
| not know this in a healthy way. They despair. They believe they ought to be able to | 83 THE IDEALIZED SELF-IMAGE |
| repeated often enough that many a depression and despair is based on expectations of yourself that are | 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS |
| conscience, then there will be no destructive hopelessness, despair with oneself, anger at oneself, impatience. There will | 91 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| incur criticism or frustration, will plunge you into despair. All this is proof that you have heard | 91 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| see that the more acute pain is your despair with yourself and with life now, not in | 100 MEETING THE PAIN OF DESTRUCTIVE PATTERNS |
| smoldering inner reality disrupts this false peace, they despair. If only you would let go of trying | 104 INTELLECT AND WILL AS TOOLS OR HINDRANCES OF SELF-REALIZATION |
| yourself, you produce, almost artificially, an overreaction of despair, hurt, self-abasement, or a feeling of injustice. You | 109 SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HEALTH THROUGH RESTITUTION FOR REAL GUILT |
| Without such a possibility you may remain in despair, falsely believing that wrongs cannot be made good | 109 SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HEALTH THROUGH RESTITUTION FOR REAL GUILT |
| outer events will swamp you with all the despair of helplessness and insecurity you had never dared | 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY |
| you and your life, you must be in despair. Whether or not you know it, you go | 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE |
| are intertwined and the personality is thrown into despair. All this happens in a vague vacuum, in | 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE |
| a negative outcome will not throw you into despair. You will soon see that the pleasant or | 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE |
| the right direction. You will not be in despair, because you will see the missing link and | 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES |
| Blessings for each one of you. Do not despair, my friends, when you sense the barriers I | 123 LIBERATION AND PEACE BY OVERCOMING FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN |
| Each time the pseudo-solutions fail to work you despair, but since the entire process of having formed | 125 TRANSITION FROM THE NO-CURRENT TO THE YES-CURRENT |
| one precariously balances on the point of confusion, despair, and stubborn refusal to open up and go | 125 TRANSITION FROM THE NO-CURRENT TO THE YES-CURRENT |
| that your consciousness is ready for. You often despair and cease to trust, because having ignored the | 129 WINNER VERSUS LOSER: INTERPLAY BETWEEN THE SELF AND CREATIVE FORCES |
| stagnation and the possibility of giving up in despair and confusion. In order to accomplish this, even | 131 INTERACTION BETWEEN EXPRESSION AND IMPRESSION |
| your actual faults never induce this kind of despair. Despair is a result of an untruthful verdict | 131 INTERACTION BETWEEN EXPRESSION AND IMPRESSION |
| actual faults never induce this kind of despair. Despair is a result of an untruthful verdict you | 131 INTERACTION BETWEEN EXPRESSION AND IMPRESSION |
| world's cruelty, which so often gives rise to despair, doubt, and confusion. Active cruelty numbs the person | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| cannot ever find what you seek. You will despair and split yourself further apart in conflicts, for | 143 UNITY AND DUALITY |
| dualistic approach to life, you cannot help but despair, no matter how much this despair is covered | 143 UNITY AND DUALITY |
| help but despair, no matter how much this despair is covered up or momentarily alleviated by occasional | 143 UNITY AND DUALITY |
| in the old way, with fear, distrust, anxiety, despair, and tight selfwill, usually in the areas where | 144 THE PROCESS AND SIGNIFICANCE OF GROWING |
| personal inadequacy. Thus you become discouraged, fall into despair and stem against the flow that could carry | 144 THE PROCESS AND SIGNIFICANCE OF GROWING |
| soul and makes you hopeless about yourself or despair about your ability to transform the defect, know | 145 RESPONDING TO THE CALL OF LIFE |
| in punishment and reward covers up the deep despair that unselfishness brings deprivation, so one is forced | 145 RESPONDING TO THE CALL OF LIFE |
| love, resulting in increasing feelings of emptiness, helplessness, despair, and isolation. You then try to counteract these | 146 POSITIVE CONCEPT OF LIFE-FEARLESSNESS TO LOVE-BALANCE BETWEEN ACTIVITY AND PASSIVITY |
| acknowledging and objectively observing them, without plunging into despair and denying the defects. This attitude in itself | 152 CONNECTION BETWEEN THE EGO AND THE UNIVERSAL POWER |
| the key to finding a numbness that causes despair and frustration, because it leads to self-alienation and | 152 CONNECTION BETWEEN THE EGO AND THE UNIVERSAL POWER |
| while unpleasure accumulates. Such a person must increasingly despair about life and doubt that fulfillment is possible | 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY |
| This is vastly responsible for the apparently bottomless despair and rage we were talking about. When you | 166 PERCEIVING, REACTING, EXPRESSING |
| reached the point of no return where absolute despair reigned and there seemed no way out. This | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| for you to have. Without this knowledge you despair, you think you are powerless; but with this | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| sooner or later changes everything: it changes your despair about yourself. It opens the door to knowing | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| the very essence of life. And those who despair about themselves because they feel they are so | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| They seem unable to help it and thus despair even more. They cannot even understand what power | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| life with death, with inanimate matter, you will despair. And even inanimate matter, as you now know | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| ugly the traits may be, you will not despair about being unlovable. You will make available the | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| will accept your own temporary state not with despair but with hope, because the hope will be | 179 CHAIN REACTIONS IN THE DYNAMICS OF CREATIVE LIFE SUBSTANCE |
| or you will fall again into the old despair of being disconnected from inner reality. The despair | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| despair of being disconnected from inner reality. The despair may have been unconscious in the past and | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| experience it as your real self so that despair about being bad, weak, inadequate, will fall by | 182 PROCESS OF MEDITATION (MEDITATION FOR THREE VOICES: EGO, LOWER SELF, HIGHER SELF) |
| energy. This missing sense of self leads to despair. If the personality blindly believes it actually is | 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS |
| lack of creativity or a feeling of general despair may be another. In this latter instance, people | 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS |
| outer experience without the inner experience even increases despair, because one does not understand the causes of | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| see what happens when the original feelings of despair and loneliness are denied, when the inner person | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| ever; I should be spared this experience of despair. By this denial you turn your feeling of | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| By this denial you turn your feeling of despair into bitterness, isolation, faithlessness -- the apprehension that | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| no way out for you. If the original despair is experienced directly, without conclusions and mental concepts | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| I speak of the clean experience of momentary despair, I do not mean the subtly forced hopelessness | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| you proceed into other feelings, such as pain, despair, anger, and so on. Thus the way out | 191 INNER AND OUTER EXPERIENCE |
| to be the only reality, apprehension, fear, and despair are inevitable. These illusory perceptions can only be | 193 RÉSUMÉ OF THE BASIC PRINCIPLES OF THE PATHWORK: ITS AIM AND PROCESS |
| not to hate; to be joyful, not to despair, so it is also your inherent nature to | 194 MEDITATION: LAWS AND VARIOUS APPROACHES-SUMMARY (MEDITATION AS POSITIVE LIFE CREATION) |
| to first experience pain and anguish, fear and despair, in a safe and wholesome way? I now | 198 TRANSITION TO POSITIVE INTENTIONALITY |
| up all the way. In that case, the despair remains. It is therefore foolish to indulge your | 200 THE COSMIC FEELING |
| which will completely eliminate fear, anxiety, friction, and despair. Surrendering the knowledge of the limited ego to | 210 VISUALIZATION PROCESS FOR GROWING INTO THE UNITIVE STATE |
| every darkness and therefore never a reason to despair. You will know that nothing happens without good | 210 VISUALIZATION PROCESS FOR GROWING INTO THE UNITIVE STATE |
| in a difficult, depressed, and bleak mood, you despair because then, again, you must think this mood | 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES |
| your mood clouds over and you fall into despair and struggle against the mood, you do not | 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES |
| some of your resources to cover up resignation, despair, and distrust of life, though you do this | 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD |
| stagnation, between reality and illusion, between fulfillment and despair, on the side of movement, reality, and fulfillment | 215 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS CONTINUED -- PROCESS IN THE NOW |
| following your process can be trusted, while you despair about your constant disappointments, refusing to connect them | 218 THE EVOLUTIONARY PROCESS |
| your lack of true self-identity and to your despair about it. Appearance values, as long as you | 232 BEING VALUES VERSUS APPEARANCE VALUES -- SELF-IDENTIFICATION |
| your reality, to who you really are. So despair and a sense of futility and hopelessness about | 232 BEING VALUES VERSUS APPEARANCE VALUES -- SELF-IDENTIFICATION |
| you only focus on the lower self you despair. At the same time, if you revert to | 239 CHRISTMAS LECTURE 1975 |
| are right back where you started from. Your despair is that you cannot differentiate between the mask | 239 CHRISTMAS LECTURE 1975 |
| triumph is very shallow and covers a deep despair. Your dual nature is in constant battle here | 249 THE PAIN OF INJUSTICE -- COSMIC RECORDS OF ALL EVENTS, DEEDS, EXPRESSIONS |
| personality, the inner self is in the greatest despair. You feel this despair sometimes only vaguely, at | 249 THE PAIN OF INJUSTICE -- COSMIC RECORDS OF ALL EVENTS, DEEDS, EXPRESSIONS |
| is in the greatest despair. You feel this despair sometimes only vaguely, at other times quite keenly | 249 THE PAIN OF INJUSTICE -- COSMIC RECORDS OF ALL EVENTS, DEEDS, EXPRESSIONS |
| never understand it clearly. Often you misinterpret this despair and you blame life or others for it | 249 THE PAIN OF INJUSTICE -- COSMIC RECORDS OF ALL EVENTS, DEEDS, EXPRESSIONS |
| mask self to the world, while you inwardly despair about who you believe you really are, or | 250 INNER AWARENESS OF GRACE -- EXPOSING THE DEFICIT |
| is always either an angry, bitter resignation or despair about life and its pains. At the same | 253 CONTINUE YOUR STRUGGLE AND CEASE ALL STRUGGLE |
| personal rhythm pattern. Remember that and do not despair. Christ is here. He hears you, He loves | 258 PERSONAL CONTACT WITH JESUS CHRIST-POSITIVE AGGRESSION-REAL MEANING OF SALVATION |