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215. PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS CONTINUED -- PROCESS IN THE NOW
Greetings, all my dearest, dearest friends. May you all receive the blessings, the strength and the
love that are poured forth as a result of your combined efforts and commitments to your innermost
being.
In this lecture I shall continue the topic I started last time. Once again I ask you to open your
innermost sensitivity and intuitiveness to understand, at least to some degree, the deep meaning of
this lecture. Bringing your intellect alone to it will not give you an adequate comprehension of the
depth of the topic. And again, as with the last lecture, what may first appear as purely abstract
cosmic knowledge about creative processes will, when you pursue it and follow me all the way,
become clearly and immediately applicable to your life here and now. Your own inner processes will
become more comprehensible when you perceive, to whatever degree, how these processes are
directly related to and part of larger cosmic processes that continuously exist.
I explained to you in the last lecture about psychic nuclear points and psychic nuclear spiral
configurations. I will briefly recapitulate them to make this lecture more comprehensible.
Every smallest particle of creation consists of endless series of psychic nuclear spiral configurations
that are intense energy movements, winding up in a climactic point which brings the particular
creation into manifestation, on whatever level of reality that may be. Each of these configurations
consists of a series of psychic events of consciousness content. In other words, these energy
movements are not merely mechanical constructs that simply exist separately from mind. They are
always expressions of mind -- greater mind or smaller minds, as the case may be. Each creation has
sequences of several such configurations that intertwine, interweave, overlap, form and reform
themselves, create and fall apart and recreate themselves in every self-renewing, perpetuating,
extending patterns of interacting spiral configurations. Each pattern may seem, and be, a creation
within itself, quite different and purposeful within its more narrow framework. Yet, at the same
time, it is part of a larger scheme of purposeful patterns of creation.
Let me give you a simple example on the physical level. Let us suppose you decide to get up from
your chair, to move through this room, walk down the stairs and out to the street corner -- for
whatever purpose. That total plan is one configuration, one spiral. Arriving at your destination is
the explosive, climactic point that brings the plan into manifestation. This particular creation has
made its appearance on this level of reality. However, before this result can come into being, you
have to take so and so many steps. Each step is a plan in itself, is an intent to move certain muscles,
because even though you may move these muscles automatically by now, the intent still exists. The
intent, the movement, and the execution of the intent follow a certain plan. The plan, together with
the execution in each particle, creates many smaller spiral configurations, complete in themselves.
Of course, the terms "small" or "large" are not correct on this level of reality, but I have to use them
for lack of better words in your language. Each step is a creation of a spiral form and psychic
nuclear end point, complete with consciousness content, purpose, plan and execution. The total
walk consists of a "larger" such total form, consisting of those "smaller" ones -- the individual steps.
But the walk from here to the corner is not an isolated creation either. It, too, is part of a larger
plan, an intent of which the walk is just as much a partial creation as the step is a partial creation of
the walk from here to the corner. This formula is very important for you to understand because it
represents the scheme of creation itself.
Let us take another example. Suppose you wish to build a house. Again the same principle applies.
So many partial creative spiral forms converge into a whole which, in turn, is again only a part of a
larger plan. Therefore, when planning your house, you may first have to work for a number of years
to be able to purchase the property and then to hire the architect who plans and designs the house.
The architect, in turn, must execute his or her own plan and hire a contractor to organize the work
with various sub-contractors who must cooperate with one another. Then laborers and interior
decorators get to work until the house is finished.
Each goes through an infinite number of a series of interacting psychic nuclear points, each totally
formed in its own perfection, the whole of which becomes part of a larger plan, and so on and on.
Each step in its smallest particle is a creation in itself. Each "little" creation is an explosion of a
psychic spiral formation. The larger creation consists of so many smaller ones, which extend and
extend. For example, the purpose of the house itself is only an infinitesimal step of a whole larger
series of creative, intertwining events. You may follow through yourself, with some imagination,
how the house is, relatively, only a small step in a larger scheme. This larger scheme, too, is only an
infinitesimal step of a still larger scheme -- as one human life is when considered over a whole
period of its evolutionary spiral movement.
This is a very important process for you to visualize intuitively. The examples I gave are very
simple. Yet even in these simple examples, you can perhaps imagine how many psychic nuclear
points are necessary to exist and weave a whole network of larger psychic nuclear points, which in
turn move, create, explode, fall apart, form together in a new meaningful pattern, related to the
larger plan. Trying to imagine the unimaginable meaning and purposefulness behind these plannings
may give you an inkling of the Divine Mind at work at all times, in its benign, loving wisdom and
power of creation.
Understanding these principles even to a small degree will give you another insight, namely that even
an insignificant act like walking from here to the street corner is indeed a creation. It requires the
most brilliant creative genius to set in motion the energy systems, the muscular coordination and
control and the innumerable components necessary to execute such a creative act with all that forms
part of it. And walking from here to the street corner is not an isolated creation. You must have a
reason to walk there, and that reason, again, is only a small part of a larger plan or scheme. This
interweaving, forever accelerating, enlarging, self-perpetuating process of creative patterns, each in
itself a perfection within its own fragment, and this fragment only a part of a larger fragment, and so
on and on, is a vague sketch of the creative process itself, always at work.
Imagine the creation of a planet, of the human anatomy, of a mathematical system, of the literally
infinite qualities contained in the ether. Still, you may not even vaguely perceive how many entire
systems of creation, systems within smaller systems, are contained in the creation of each of these
examples. The smallest particle of air is in itself a perfect creation of a psychic nuclear spiral point
and climactic explosion. Each of these particles is a part of a larger scheme, again, as I illustrated
with other examples. I only wish to convey that the smallest or biggest creation -- from your point
of view -- undergoes the same serial law that is the basis of creation itself. This is why I repeat
myself. It will help you to perceive this process when you look at your inner makeup, your reactions
and the creations of your mind. For the same principle exists of course with positive and negative
creations.
Since the universe is filled with Being, there could be no smallest measure where there is non-being.
Each of these nuclear points has a content and a meaning. It is not separate from consciousness. It
is an integral part and a result of consciousness. And when you understand the inner meaning of a
nuclear point, when you perceive a nuclear spiral point, fully comprehending its meaning and
purpose, its message, you will have transcended, to a certain degree, the narrow confinement in
which you suffer from seeing the world out of context.
The less you see that these smaller part-creations are only fragmentary particles of a whole, the more
you believe that the smaller particle is all there is and has no connection with anything else -- simply
because you cannot perceive more, and thus the more fragmentized you must be yourself, in your
momentary consciousness or sense of awareness. When I say momentary, I mean this awareness
exists only as long as you reside within the narrow confines of human limitations. Conversely, the
more you perceive that everything that you can experience is only a smaller part and fragment of a
larger and still larger ongoing plan -- like the one step you make as part of the whole walk, and the
walk being a fragment of a larger plan in your mind -- the more you are aware of and connected with
the All-Consciousness, the Whole. Therefore, you are nearer to bliss.
Time itself is a manifestation of this fragmentation. For time, as I often said, is nothing but the
illusion of a disconnected view of reality. In the framework of this particular topic, time is a
perception only of the partial steps, the "smaller" creative units of spiral nuclear points. You do not
see the whole structure of this particle. This is why you suffer so often from the feeling of
senselessness. When you are in this limited state of consciousness, you are indeed fragmented and
oblivious of the larger process.
Time, according to the human state of consciousness, is experiencing what is as a sequence rather
than as a part of a whole. You see things linearly rather than fully, endlessly in width, depth and
scope, in dimensions that the human mind cannot even perceive at this point of its development.
Each moment of time, to speak in your terms -- each moment of being, to speak in my terms -- is in
itself a psychic nuclear construct, containing meaning and consciousness, containing a purposeful
design. Each fragmentary second is that. If you string along second upon second upon second --
not only sequentially, but in depth and width -- you may perceive that there is no time, that this is a
point of creation that is endless and is always there. And that is what we might call the "now point."
It is not entirely impossible, in your present state of development, to occasionally experience the
"now point" -- the sense of it. But this requires much higher states of conscious ness, which must
be earned. Humankind, as a whole, has now just about left kindergarten. When consciousness
grows and matures a little and therefore perceives life not only as the immediately obvious fragment,
but senses that the fragment is a part of a larger fragment, and so on and on, then the consciousness
prepares itself for experiencing the "now point." People may have only occasional inklings of such a
perception, but these will be enough to imprint on their minds that there is much more to this life
than what they immediately experience in life.
Being in the "now point" means being completely in the now. This is what we are going to talk
about in the second part of this lecture. Only when you are in the eternal now are you truly in bliss,
truly secure, fearless, and absolutely certain -- not as wishful thinking, but as absolute, realistic,
justified inner certainty -- of the beautiful meaning of life that is a continuum, that does not stop
merely because certain momentary manifestations seem to stop.
This sense of eternality is the true bliss. For when there is no fear, there is complete relaxation. The
word "relaxation" could be misleading and I hesitate to use it, but the human language is limited and
we have to do as best as we can with the terms available. So let me describe what I mean.
A completely fearless state, without contraction and tension, is the state that makes a personality
susceptible to the ever-existing bliss of the universe. This, however, is far from being a passive state.
Lack of tension does not imply flaccidity or motionlessness. It is an ever-moving state in which the
pulsatory changes of tension, in a different sense, alternate with openness and total receptivity. In
the ordinary human sense, the flexing is associated with tightening and defense. In the pure state
the tightening is a kind of charging, so as to give spring to the creative movement that follows from
it. This alternating movement of charging and letting go is a creative whole which makes the entity
participate in the creation. Both these movements are relaxed in the sense of being without fear and
defense. They express a state of deep knowing that all is well in the universe.
This state is immensely blissful. The longing for this bliss deep in the heart of all human beings can
never be extinguished. And when you fragment your consciousness and create the false reality of
the three-dimensional world, inwardly you are still connected with the greater reality of eternal being
and with the eternal "now point." Your manifest consciousness will constantly strive for this state,
whether you know it or not. This striving is in itself the motivating force to grow, to search, to
move, to accept the temporary hardships which are self-created, and to walk through them as
through tunnels, so as to free the self from the obstruction.
This requires, as you all know, a motivating force. For you constantly fluctuate in a battle between
wanting to move and follow the longing, or resisting movement and giving up what your heart
knows exists. This is a tremendously important struggle that each entity must go through.
At one period in the evolutionary ascent, the struggle is won. The commitment is made to
movement, even if it seems to bring momentary discomfort or hardship. Of course that is an
illusion. Discomfort and hardship exist and must manifest, whether or not you decide to move in
the direction of your own inner destiny. To follow this move is the only real way you can
understand the hardship and therefore really dissolve it. Denying the hardship only appears
temporarily to eliminate it, so that the hardship appears to be created by the decision to turn inward
into the direction of the real self. This is also an illusion.
The striving for the bliss is the motivational force that tips the scale of the inner battle between
movement and stagnation, between reality and illusion, between fulfillment and despair, on the side
of movement, reality, and fulfillment. It must occur at one stage or another. However, you also
seek shortcuts. You sometimes want to fulfill the longing without paying the price. The price is the
labor of searching, of seeking and finding, of learning, of growing, of changing, of self-purification,
of traversing all self-created pain and evil.
Now let us briefly consider what such shortcuts may be. Several are possible. Let me list a few.
Sexual activity can be such a shortcut. In sexual experience the blissful Now is most often
experienced, although very rarely sustained. When sexuality is an escape from the problems,
difficulties and unpleasant aspects of reality, then it is sought as a cheap way of attaining a semblance
of universal bliss, which the heart knows exists. Of course, as all cheating, it cannot work. The bliss
will, at best, be a very illusory and shortlived one. When the blissful universal state of the eternal
Now is attained through honest growth, sexual union will be but one expression of it, as the result
of two beings relating on the deepest, most honest level, who fuse their spirituality, their emotional
selves, their minds, and their physical beings. The bliss that results from this is then a foretaste of
the "now point," or, the "now point" will be temporarily experienced.
The most blatant false search for the "now point" is through drugs. Indeed, the drug experience
removes the physical, three-dimensional boundaries and thus reveals the reality behind the great
curtain. But when this revelation occurs without earning it by making the state of consciousness
compatible with this experience, then the price is high. I hardly need to illustrate the point. The
same applies, of course, to alcohol.
Such a shortcut is always a combination of two aspects of the personality. On the one hand there is
the great urge to be in a blissful state, which a part of the personality "remembers" and desires, on
the other, there is a resistance to doing the work. Attempting to compromise between these two
sides leads to such false ways of attaining the "now point." The fall from the bliss state is then all
the more painful and the state of ordinary, physical consciousness all the more dark. In Scripture
the Fall of the Angels is often symbolized as a one-time happening. But it is a reality outside time
that occurs whenever the fragmented state of consciousness accrues by violating some spiritual law.
The false search for the "now point" is a violation in that it wants to gain the result without paying
the price. The insistence to be in heaven without being ready for it makes the personality plunge
into hell.
Meditational exercises are another way in which human beings often seek the bliss state. Offhand it
would appear that this is an honest search, for it almost always entails a lengthy practice of
concentration exercises and sometimes even a quite ascetic way of life which is supposed to prepare
the personality for the experience. This, too, is every so often an illusion.
Extended fasting, concentration exercises, chanting and self-hypnotic reiteration of meditational
phrases can indeed produce results. There can be a temporary experience that reveals the great
world behind the curtain. But if all these practices are substitutions for self-search, self-purification,
and for change from the depths of the distortions, they will, in essence, be similar to the more
crassly destructive escape routes we mentioned before.
If meditational exercises are mechanical, the way is an illusory one. Only when the "now point" is a
result of slowly earned development will the new perceptions be truly yours. Otherwise you will put
a lot of energy forcefully into something that you cannot maintain with a feeling of ease. It must
eventually split off from your undeveloped parts, which you then push out of consciousness. Thus a
tremendous contradiction occurs. The blissful "now point" is truly a result of unification. If you do
not honestly attain this unification and you seek shortcuts, then instead of unifying, you will become
even more split. In fact, in such a case the personality was less split when it began than it will find
itself after temporarily tasting and savoring the blissful "now points" by artificially induced means. I
include mechanical exercises and practices as such means.
There is only one safe and secure way to attain the blissful "now point," the revelation of reality in
its unlimited dimensions. That is by fulfilling the task for which you have come. Only a path such
as this can help you do so. You must learn to go through your pain: the pain of your illusion, of
your guilt, of your undeveloped side. Ultimately this is what it all amounts to.
What is the real nature of your state when you have lost the "now point"? You are not aware of
spiritual reality, you are cut off from it. You think that the temporary reality you have created -- an
illusory reality, if I may coin this apparently paradoxical phrase -- is reality.
I now come to the most crucial part of this lecture. I said before that being in the "now point" is
being aware, intensely aware, of the meaning of this "now point." Whenever you strive away from
the "now point," you lose awareness of its meaning. You then create a superimposed false reality.
This happens in several ways. In the first place, not being in the eternal now, in terms of time, is
due to being either in the past or in the future -- not in the present, in the infinitesimal present. One
can be in the present to some degree, but still not truly aware of the "now point." Either you are in
each minute already ahead -- perhaps in the next minute, the next hour, the next day, or even some
faraway "future," in a wish-dream of how one day it will be or should be or could be by magic.
Then you bypass the "now point" that could give you the key to actually working toward that
cherished future point. Or you hang on to something from the past that governs you, often without
even knowing it.
Your pathwork brings you in contact with both. Often you become aware of how your past still
influences you only after much laborious groping. This influence makes you react to something that
takes place now as if it were still in the past, and in this distorted vision you actually believe the event
to be the same as a past one. Not that this belief is articulate. If it were, you would be nearer to the
"now point." The fact that you are convinced your present reaction is an appropriate one to the
now is a measure of your alienation from the "now point."
The degree of such superimpositions from the past to the present is much, much stronger than even
you, my friends, realize, though you have seen some examples of this. As you grow further, you will
become more conscious of this "time projection." What you often believe are free actions,
determined by the current situations, are not at all freely chosen, but are determined by events and
reactions you had that may or may not have been appropriate in the past. In either case, they are
not appropriate now and lead to distortion of reality, thus to a false creation that blots out your
connection with the real now.
By the same token, when you view your life objectively, you will see how much your wishes and
your striving into the future determine your experience -- and therefore your lack of true depth
experience -- now. So you lose the "now point" as a result of the past and the future that tear at
you, as it were, from both directions. Crassly speaking, it is this lack of awareness of what really
takes place that creates the time illusion. Or, to put it differently, the false reality, the lack of self-
awareness, creates a fragmentation and a disconnectedness.
However, to be in the "now point," to comprehend its meaning, not to live in the past or in the
future, is not something you can directly determine in your mind by an act of will. The act of will
comes into play, but it must go toward establishing self-awareness in all those mundane aspects that
are unwelcome for you to face and deal with. Only then will you be in truth. Only in that way can
you establish a sense of reality. And only as a consequence of doing that will a new sense of
timelessness evolve spontaneously, effortlessly, when you least expect it. It will come as a byproduct
of your search for your truth.
Only indirectly, as a result of self-exploration, will the past cease to be the present. You will then
trust the future completely because you will know that it can only be an extension of the now. If
you are in full truth in the now, you build a "future" -- in your terms -- that can be wholly trusted.
Thus you don't need to toy in a wishful way with the future because you don't need to escape from
the present. Then the forever now takes on a new reality.
Other ways in which you lose the "now point" of each fragmentary moment in time in which you
exist -- in which you breathe, in which you think and will and feel and experience -- are very familiar
to you who have spent time and effort on this path. They are even known by psychological schools
which attempt to find the inner self. They seem to have little to do with cosmic and creative
processes. In your world, today, they seem quite humdrum concepts, far removed from such topics
as we discuss now. But they are indeed very intensely connected with the processes under
discussion. These are (1) displacement, (2) projection, (3) denial. I will give simple examples of each
to use for your further self-exploration.
Suppose there is something painful in you that you struggle against -- and you all know how much
you struggle in that respect. You then may lose the "now point" through displacement. Let us take
the example when you love a person dearly who hurts and angers you. You do not wish to offend
that person. If you show your feelings, the consequences may incur the loss of that person whom
you need and are dependent on. This would cause a pain you wish to avoid. Nevertheless that
person has done something to you that pains and angers you. Acknowledging that pain may also
destroy a bubble of illusion you do not wish to give up. Perhaps the illusion is that the beloved
person ought to be perfect and never do things to hurt you. The purpose of your illusion itself is to
avoid unpleasantness -- in this case, confrontation -- and/or risk the possible loss of the loved one.
You hope to avoid all risks, discomforts and pains by building an illusion into which you invest quite
a bit of energy so that you can maintain its fictional reality. Even so, the energy of the pain and
anger you experience is very real and you need to dispose of it. The illusion is that by not
acknowledging the pain and anger they will simply go away. The mechanism by which you try to
"solve" this problem -- often so automatic that it is not even perceived -- is to put your feelings for
this beloved and important person onto another person, perhaps on another issue.
This other person may not mean as much to you. His or her anger, rejection and retaliation may be
less "dangerous" to you. Or you are so secure in this person's love, tolerance and understanding that
you can safely put this load on him or her. In that way, you have "solved" the problem by finding a
necessary outlet for a tight energy accumulation, without jeopardizing the relationship with the all-
important figure in your life. This is what I call displacement. Quite apart from guilt about the
dishonesty of such a shrewd device, it also creates a false reality. You begin to live in a self-created
world that has no bearing on what reality is. This makes you completely unaware of every fractional
"now point." You cannot discern its meaning or message until you are willing to set it all straight
again.
Many of you are sufficiently advanced on your path and have experienced any number of times that
when you fully face the most undesirable, dishonest and petty infringements of truth in you, you get
into a state of bliss. You reach it even before you necessarily change that part of you, simply by
dealing honestly with the issue. The reason for this is that you are in the particular "now point" of
your untruthfulness, of your deceitfulness, of your negativity. Displacement creates chaos and
disorder. It creates a total confusion about what really is. It creates a total disconnectedness from
the continuum of your inner existence. Thus it must create fear and fragmentation.
The example I used is a very frequent one and exists in your lives to a much larger degree than you
presently realize. Here and there you see some of your displacement, but not nearly to the degree it
still goes on in all of you. You so often shift something from one person to another, from one
situation to another. Sometimes you are just too lazy and too resistant by habit to deal with the real
situation. Then it comes out in the false one. There can be no question about coming into your
forever changing and self-renewing and ongoing "now point," unless you stop that procedure, unless
you fully make up your mind to see what you are doing and to what extent you are doing it. The
lack of awareness of how you are doing it makes the problem much greater. The minute you see
you have the problem of automatic displacement, the problem is already diminished.
Let us now take projection. You are a little more familiar with that, but even here you are often
quite blind to how you react to others, precisely because you do not wish to see something in
yourself. Sometimes the other person may indeed have the undesirable trait, though at other times
this may not even be the case. But whether or not it is, it matters little. The important thing to see
is that you abuse the energy that you should use toward facing, confronting, and dealing with an
aspect of yourself by becoming angry and annoyed at the other person instead. You do this because
you wish to maintain an illusion about yourself -- namely that you do not have the trait in question.
Denial is of course quite self-explanatory. You neither displace nor project what you do not wish to
experience, but you attempt to simply deny its existence. All these procedures -- being influenced by
the past, striving toward the future, displacement, projection, and denial -- are attempts to get away
from the "now point," in the illusion that something can be avoided that is in any way unpleasant.
You create a new reality by force that is not founded on truth. In essence this means abusing the
creative faculties. What you really accomplish is the creation of more fragmentation, a further
alienation from the psychic nuclear "now point" with all its glorious meaning and relationship to the
whole.
The love of all your friends who work in this beautiful venture is streaming forth to all of you. The
blessings will multiply in your hearts and in your deeper minds as you let yourself feel these
blessings. Be your innermost God.