| Despairing..................5 | |
| occasional disappointments, you will not be half as despairing as before. You will gain true insight and | 71 REALITY AND ILLUSION CONCENTRATION EXERCISES |
| that reality is so dismal, so hopeless, so despairing, and stands in such contradiction to my pleasure | 82 THE CONQUEST OF DUALITY SYMBOLIZED IN THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JESUS |
| tend to strengthen the rigid rules and commands, despairing more and more when they prove progressively less | 85 DISTORTIONS OF THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION |
| and yourself so seriously, in such a negative, despairing, heavy way. You can take life and the | 151 INTENSITY: AN OBSTACLE TO SELF-REALIZATION |
| way to own up to your negativities without despairing because you can transcend the limited consciousness of | 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES |
| Desperate...................13 | |
| for when everything seems hopeless, the mood becomes desperate. The undeveloped being feels in terms of black | 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS |
| that you can never get commensurately to the desperate intensity of your struggle. Find specifically how this | 69 THE FOLLY OF WATCHING FOR RESULTS WHILE ON THE PATH; THE VALID DESIRE TO BE LOVED |
| no one can give you but yourself. The desperate struggle to be accepted by others in lieu | 109 SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HEALTH THROUGH RESTITUTION FOR REAL GUILT |
| proves its presence. The frantic fear that the desperate urgency will not be fulfilled always heralds an | 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS |
| be sure about its existence if you are desperate in your yes-current; if you fear that the | 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS |
| on to the outer ego-faculties because of a desperate fear of the involuntary processes. You fear everything | 153 THE SELF-REGULATING NATURE OF INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| supposed to fill your need. You then become desperate; the more you try, the less you fulfill | 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY |
| in what direction you are driven. You become desperate because in your urgency to have the need | 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY |
| direction. As long as the situation was not desperate, you had hoped that going in this direction | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| limits of the old direction, when you were desperate, could you give up your stubborn insistence, old | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| you to make themselves feel better, in a desperate attempt to enhance their deteriorated self-esteem. If you | 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY |
| never be told what to do, the more desperate is the inner wish not to govern one's | 254 SURRENDER |
| relieved without oneness being achieved. The longing is desperate in your soul, and the pain of not | 257 ASPECTS OF THE NEW DIVINE INFLUX: COMMUNICATION, GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS, EXPOSURE |
| Desperately.................32 | |
| to yourself: I no longer need approval so desperately that I sometimes violate myself, become untrue to | 57 THE MASS IMAGE OF SELF-IMPORTANCE |
| most afraid of. In both alternatives you struggle desperately against death. You struggle no less when you | 81 CONFLICTS IN THE WORLD OF DUALITY |
| protection and your means of attaining what you desperately wanted -- life, happiness, security, self-confidence. The awareness | 83 THE IDEALIZED SELF-IMAGE |
| your real self out. In fact, you are desperately hiding it. The idealized self-image may assume many | 83 THE IDEALIZED SELF-IMAGE |
| is free enough not to need another so desperately as if it were a matter of life | 106 SADNESS VERSUS DEPRESSION -- RELATIONSHIP |
| stands for the superimposed conscience, because one so desperately tries to win his or her affection. Not | 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE |
| The child's helplessness and insecurity makes him strive desperately for acceptance by his parents. In doing so | 116 REACHING THE SPIRITUAL CENTER-STRUGGLE BETWEEN LOWER SELF AND SUPERIMPOSED CONSCIENCE |
| that each disturbing happening harbors a knowledge you desperately need in order to find yourself and live | 120 THE INDIVIDUAL AND HUMANITY |
| the tragic human conflicts is that human beings desperately yearn for their fulfillment as men and women | 122 SELF-FULFILLMENT THROUGH SELF-REALIZATION AS MAN OR WOMAN |
| through union with their counterparts, and often equally desperately they flee from union in unreasonable fear. This | 122 SELF-FULFILLMENT THROUGH SELF-REALIZATION AS MAN OR WOMAN |
| immeasurable happiness which every individual human soul so desperately yearns for. I cannot emphasize strongly enough that | 122 SELF-FULFILLMENT THROUGH SELF-REALIZATION AS MAN OR WOMAN |
| often be puzzled because the yes-current is so desperately urgent. Instead of letting this mislead you into | 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS |
| up to the bliss of union must be desperately avoided because it threatens to eliminate control. Without | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| of people the individual believes he or she desperately needs and cannot afford to antagonize. A special | 150 SELF-LIKING: THE CONDITION FOR UNIVERSAL STATE OF BLISS |
| help you to give up what you so desperately hold on to, even while you emotionally still | 157 INFINITE POSSIBILITIES OF EXPERIENCE HINDERED BY EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCY |
| people cramp up in order to hang on desperately. The various false ways of relief from a | 158 THE EGO'S COOPERATION WITH OR OBSTRUCTION OF THE REAL SELF |
| new perception of life make them hang on desperately to the very state of consciousness that is | 170 FEAR OF BLISS VERSUS LONGING FOR IT -- THE ENERGY CENTERS |
| not want it, that you also fear it desperately. My friends here, who are already somewhat advanced | 177 PLEASURE -- THE FULL PULSATION OF LIFE |
| is truly you who reject the fulfillments you desperately long for and think you really want. There | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| because there is something in you that you desperately hold on to. You do not wish to | 183 THE SPIRITUAL MEANING OF CRISIS |
| that your whole inner being longs for something desperately. Therefore a third layer has to be examined | 186 VENTURE IN MUTUALITY: HEALING FORCE TO CHANGE NEGATIVE INNER WILL |
| individual mirrors those inner aspects which the person desperately needs to be aware of. My friends, it | 207 THE SPIRITUAL SYMBOLISM AND SIGNIFICANCE OF SEXUALITY |
| the meaning of this resistance? You want something desperately. You intrinsically believe it could exist for you | 208 THE INNATE HUMAN CAPACITY TO CREATE |
| to the current which says, I want it desperately. However, the desperation is much more a result | 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD |
| You find that part in you where you desperately need others because you fear you are not | 225 EVOLUTIONARY STAGES OF INDIVIDUAL AND GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS |
| stubborn and hard to move, and the new desperately wants to change. It is frightening and painful | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| feeling of deserving and claiming the abundance you desperately grope for in faulty ways. That attitude must | 237 LEADERSHIP -- THE ART OF TRANSCENDING FRUSTRATION |
| of the old familiar environment, and yet you desperately strive toward the new place. You chafe against | 241 DYNAMICS OF MOVEMENT AND RESISTANCE TO ITS NATURE |
| what I am talking about. The old ways desperately need profound change. A new sexual expression and | 251 THE EVOLUTION AND SPIRITUAL MEANING OF MARRIAGE -- NEW AGE MARRIAGE |
| the direct doorway to the self-esteem you so desperately try to create and preserve by hiding. If | 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY |
| to become aware of these influences, and you desperately need to challenge and refute them. You have | 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY |
| the self is the master and where you desperately need the Great Master without whom nothing can | 258 PERSONAL CONTACT WITH JESUS CHRIST-POSITIVE AGGRESSION-REAL MEANING OF SALVATION |
| Desperation.................7 | |
| an easy, relaxed yes-current, without a tinge of desperation. It is a yes-current that wants the fulfillment | 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS |
| hurt creates an unbearable pain that leads to desperation and never to a satisfactory conclusion. The real | 165 EVOLUTIONARY PHASES IN RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN REALMS OF FEELINGS, REASON, AND WILL |
| of direction innumerable times. You have come to desperation, finding no way out. Then something in you | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| old direction -- and, lo and behold, the desperation vanished. Completely unexpected solutions appeared. Only by having | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| ultimately lies. True omnipotence comes not from need, desperation, greed, pride and self-will, but from having met | 173 BASIC ATTITUDES AND PRACTICES TO OPEN THE CENTERS - RIGHT ATTITUDE TOWARD FRUSTRATION |
| lose yourself in it and the greater the desperation of the illusion becomes. Only when you take | 211 OUTER EVENTS REFLECT SELF-CREATION -- THREE STAGES |
| which says, I want it desperately. However, the desperation is much more a result of the tightness | 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD |
| Despicable..................6 | |
| believe that because of this conflict you are despicable. No, you should know that your soul consists | 29 THE FORCES OF ACTIVITY AND PASSIVITY -- FINDING GOD'S WILL |
| emotion-type, who accomplishes even less, is even more despicable to the will-type. The judgment is right in | 43 THREE BASIC PERSONALITY TYPES: REASON, WILL, EMOTION |
| form. Warmth, affection, communication, unselfishness: all that is despicable, and whenever an impulse of this sort is | 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS |
| good or bad, strong or weak, admirable or despicable. But even if the experience is not so | 99 FALSIFIED IMPRESSIONS OF PARENTS: THEIR CAUSE AND CURE |
| that you are only human and are not despicable because you harbor the same weaknesses as all | 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY |
| and, I am so terrible, so bad, so despicable, that I have no right to exist and | 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS |
| Despise.....................17 | |
| even lonelier and more deflated, and they will despise themselves even more. Therefore they will, in their | 17 THE CALL -- DAILY REVIEW |
| the foundation of self-development -- the more you despise yourself. The more you do that, the more | 31 SHAME |
| turn, makes you even more despondent and you despise yourself even more. The vicious circle continues in | 31 SHAME |
| hide behind a wall of falsity, you must despise yourself -- much more than a brother or | 31 SHAME |
| opinions not your own, the more you unconsciously despise yourself for it. And the more you despise | 51 IMPORTANCE OF FORMING INDEPENDENT OPINIONS |
| despise yourself for it. And the more you despise yourself, the greater the apparent need to adopt | 51 IMPORTANCE OF FORMING INDEPENDENT OPINIONS |
| self- contempt and feelings of inferiority. You always despise yourself because in some way you wish to | 53 SELF-LOVE |
| explicitly said that to the measure that you despise yourself you feel inferior because in some way | 53 SELF-LOVE |
| overcome many a weakness for which you may despise yourself. It will reduce certain fears and anxieties | 64 OUTER WILL AND INNER WILL -- MISCONCEPTION ABOUT SELFISHNESS |
| often conflict with one another. You may unconsciously despise in one parent what you try to emulate | 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF |
| acceptance you crave. In doing so, you often despise others who, you think, are despised by those | 79 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| Deeply sensing the untruth of their motivations, they despise themselves for it. Moreover, the superimposed faith has | 81 CONFLICTS IN THE WORLD OF DUALITY |
| self, which say that one must never resent, despise, dislike, blame, find fault with others, and so | 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS |
| one should be angry and unforgiving; one should despise and not understand; one should not be kind | 85 DISTORTIONS OF THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION |
| inner life it holds true. Verify how you despise yourself for not living up to perfection; how | 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS |
| a person the superior world decrees you should despise, you will discover that the whole division of | 107 THREE ASPECTS THAT PREVENT LOVING |
| admire and wish to emulate one parent and despise the other. Yet, in the course of this | 113 IDENTIFICATION WITH THE SELF |