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| intent. This is how creation unfolds in its myriad forms. In conscious creation you express various thoughts | 194 MEDITATION: LAWS AND VARIOUS APPROACHES-SUMMARY (MEDITATION AS POSITIVE LIFE CREATION) |
| eternally moving forth and changing manifestation in its myriad forms. Now how does this apply to you | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| truth, justice, beauty, but also creative vigor, vitality, myriad expressions of self, of life forever alternating for | 234 PERFECTION, IMMORTALITY, OMNIPOTENCE |
| create worlds and to re-create the self in myriad joyful forms, to dissolve these forms and re-create | 234 PERFECTION, IMMORTALITY, OMNIPOTENCE |
| thing that is your inner richness can create myriad kinds of fulfillment. You withhold your inner richness | 236 THE SUPERSTITION OF PESSIMISM |
| Myself......................223 | |
| do I lack clarity about certain things in myself? Such self-examination should go on at all times | 2 DECISIONS AND TESTS |
| effort to reflect upon these things and open myself to divine enlightenment and devote regularly, daily, about | 3 CHOOSING YOUR DESTINY -- THE WILL TO CHANGE |
| course I do not want happiness only for myself. I will be very glad to see my | 5 HAPPINESS FOR YOURSELF OR HAPPINESS AS A LINK IN THE CHAIN OF LIFE |
| cannot fool you, just as I cannot fool myself. True, I want to be happy. But also | 5 HAPPINESS FOR YOURSELF OR HAPPINESS AS A LINK IN THE CHAIN OF LIFE |
| First, do I keep a harmonious balance within myself between instinct and intellect? Do I give enough | 6 THE HUMAN ROLE IN THE SPIRITUAL AND MATERIAL UNIVERSES |
| whose consequences and extent I have not given myself a clear account? And what are the faults | 8 MEDIUMSHIP -- HOW TO CONTACT GOD'S SPIRIT WORLD |
| will be done, I want the truth about myself and will not recoil from it in cowardice | 8 MEDIUMSHIP -- HOW TO CONTACT GOD'S SPIRIT WORLD |
| of the work. Ask, When should I let myself be guided? When must I act by myself | 8 MEDIUMSHIP -- HOW TO CONTACT GOD'S SPIRIT WORLD |
| myself be guided? When must I act by myself? These questions can also be asked about your | 8 MEDIUMSHIP -- HOW TO CONTACT GOD'S SPIRIT WORLD |
| the earth, I must also possess dominion over myself, my health, and everything. Consequently, I am capable | 8 MEDIUMSHIP -- HOW TO CONTACT GOD'S SPIRIT WORLD |
| everything. Consequently, I am capable to begin with myself first and then obtain rulership over the earth | 8 MEDIUMSHIP -- HOW TO CONTACT GOD'S SPIRIT WORLD |
| correspond to what I like to believe about myself or what I like other people to believe | 11 SELF-KNOWLEDGE -- THE GREAT PLAN -- THE SPIRIT WORLD |
| people to believe? Have I been honest with myself so far? What are my mistakes? Although some | 11 SELF-KNOWLEDGE -- THE GREAT PLAN -- THE SPIRIT WORLD |
| help that was offered? Why did I close myself against it? Why did I not want to | 12 THE ORDER AND DIVERSITY OF THE SPIRITUAL WORLDS-THE PROCESS OF REINCARNATION |
| of spirit. This group to which I manifest myself here is building such a temple, stone by | 15 INFLUENCE BETWEEN THE SPIRITUAL WORLD AND THE MATERIAL WORLD |
| incarnation in Egypt and I wonder if I myself was in Egypt in a former incarnation? ANSWER | 15 INFLUENCE BETWEEN THE SPIRITUAL WORLD AND THE MATERIAL WORLD |
| satisfied am I with my life and with myself? Think about it. If you feel any disharmony | 17 THE CALL -- DAILY REVIEW |
| lecture I freely and arbitrarily choose the subject myself on my own authority. This is not quite | 20 GOD: THE CREATION |
| as I lack the full ability to express myself in human language. So I can only describe | 22 SALVATION |
| day to make the decisive step: I declare myself for God, for my higher self, with everything | 22 SALVATION |
| ask yourself, Can I find the point in myself where I deviate from some divine law? Compare | 28 COMMUNICATION WITH GOD -- DAILY REVIEW |
| I actually want when I am honest with myself. You may be surprised how this newly- discovered | 29 THE FORCES OF ACTIVITY AND PASSIVITY -- FINDING GOD'S WILL |
| better than I am. I want to show myself as I am; I do not strive for | 31 SHAME |
| goes against the grain and I must force myself to do it; if I cannot do it | 32 DECISION-MAKING |
| under the mask, I must get to know myself; I must analyze my feelings; but nothing of | 33 OCCUPATION WITH SELF -- RIGHT AND WRONG FAITH |
| me a clear outlook, even though I find myself confused and unhappy and mixed up at this | 33 OCCUPATION WITH SELF -- RIGHT AND WRONG FAITH |
| help me find out what it is within myself that made such defeat inevitable. What can I | 35 TURNING TO GOD |
| this lesson, of this sign that I love myself too much? Am I afraid of all the | 37 ACCEPTANCE, RIGHT AND WRONG WAY -- DIGNITY IN HUMILITY |
| the occasion? What did I want to protect myself from? How did it work out in reality | 40 MORE ON IMAGE-FINDING: A SUMMARY |
| but I am unwilling to bring it about myself? Anyone who has this resistance should pose that | 40 MORE ON IMAGE-FINDING: A SUMMARY |
| you reason: Since I am not true to myself by wanting to appear better and greater, I | 41 IMAGES: THE DAMAGE THEY DO |
| have this pride, therefore I hide it from myself. Your concern about other people's opinions makes you | 42 CHRISTMAS BLESSINGS -- OBJECTIVITY AND SUBJECTIVITY |
| know, the more responsible I am for changing myself. If I guard myself against knowing, I may | 43 THREE BASIC PERSONALITY TYPES: REASON, WILL, EMOTION |
| I am for changing myself. If I guard myself against knowing, I may stay as I am | 43 THREE BASIC PERSONALITY TYPES: REASON, WILL, EMOTION |
| the good act, but I will not deceive myself that I am utterly free of selfishness, vanity | 45 THE CONFLICT BETWEEN CONSCIOUS AND UNCONSCIOUS DESIRES |
| convinced? Did I overcome certain basic problems in myself? Do I understand truly what in me is | 48 THE LIFE FORCE IN THE UNIVERSE |
| said many times before, but I am addressing myself now to the emotional levels you are uncovering | 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME? |
| you wanted to say, You see, I declare myself guilty, but I have no real reason to | 49 OBSTACLES ON THE PATH: OLD STUFF, WRONG GUILT, AND WHO, ME? |
| it life itself. But perhaps if I punished myself I could at least avoid the humiliation, the | 50 THE VICIOUS CIRCLE |
| the degradation of being punished by forces outside myself. These basic conflicts of love and hatred, of | 50 THE VICIOUS CIRCLE |
| be so much easier for me to express myself and many a misinterpretation of my words would | 54 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| knowledge -- language, for instance -- I express myself. Whether I could express myself in any language | 54 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| -- I express myself. Whether I could express myself in any language, regardless of whether or not | 54 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| typical. Many people say: By constantly thinking about myself I become selfish. It is better to think | 55 THREE COSMIC PRINCIPLES: THE EXPANDING, THE RESTRICTING, AND THE STATIC PRINCIPLES |
| other people instead of concentrating so much on myself. It is true that there are people who | 55 THREE COSMIC PRINCIPLES: THE EXPANDING, THE RESTRICTING, AND THE STATIC PRINCIPLES |
| say to yourself, Since I am responsible for myself, I am even more guilty. This is most | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| need approval so desperately that I sometimes violate myself, become untrue to myself, or else defy dependency | 57 THE MASS IMAGE OF SELF-IMPORTANCE |
| that I sometimes violate myself, become untrue to myself, or else defy dependency by rebelling against it | 57 THE MASS IMAGE OF SELF-IMPORTANCE |
| up to only by being fully aware of myself. Once you have gained this freedom, the right | 57 THE MASS IMAGE OF SELF-IMPORTANCE |
| helpless prey. I will call forth the unhappiness myself! Then I am not quite so helpless. This | 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS |
| omnipotent ruler, I have to be a god myself. Therefore, I want to be God. Why should | 58 THE DESIRE FOR HAPPINESS AND THE DESIRE FOR UNHAPPINESS |
| having what the world denies me, taking it myself, can I become happy. These objects may either | 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| must even itself out, if I may express myself in this way. This means that even though | 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| toward others? If I am responsible for just myself, how then am I my brother's keeper? Wouldn't | 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| give the other equal rights, I would consider myself first. ANSWER: My dear, your question is based | 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| only two alternatives: Either I am responsible for myself, or for the other person. This is not | 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| the Talmud that says, If not I for myself, who then for me? If I am for | 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| who then for me? If I am for myself alone, what then am I? COMMENT: And self-responsibility | 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| that refers to the question on creativity? I myself have experienced the sudden appearance of a new | 63 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| QUESTION: Although I have made the free choice myself, knowing all these wrong motives, but at the | 64 OUTER WILL AND INNER WILL -- MISCONCEPTION ABOUT SELFISHNESS |
| me free? Does it help me to develop myself? Does it further my independence, my self-responsibility, my | 65 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| have that fault because otherwise I would expose myself and be hurt. When you find that, you | 65 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| soul. Your psyche says: How can I trust myself knowing that I am a traitor, knowing that | 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF |
| the best in me? If I cannot trust myself, I cannot trust anyone else. That is the | 66 SHAME OF THE HIGHER SELF |
| want to know. But I trust enough in myself, in my emotional health, that when the time | 67 QUESTION AND ANSWERS |
| followed through due to fear. I have resigned myself to this. But if I now approach the | 68 SUPPRESSION OF POSITIVE AND CREATIVE TENDENCIES - THOUGHT PROCESSES |
| you mean, but maybe I did not express myself correctly. This does not seem to apply to | 70 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| what I want, I either submit and allow myself to be mistreated, or I cannot take this | 74 CONFUSIONS AND HAZY MOTIVATIONS |
| tune into these negative forces. If I find myself in that state of mind, how do I | 75 THE GREAT TRANSITION IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FROM ISOLATION TO UNION |
| am allowed to take care of these messages myself and sometimes I have to disregard them. It | 76 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS (Compiled from Private Sessions and Earlier Lectures) |
| path, both the person I work with and myself feel that I have dissolved a very important | 79 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| words, I did not really feel that way myself, but thought I had to for various outer | 79 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| a way then I will no longer be myself. Is that a perversion of the self-preservation instinct | 85 DISTORTIONS OF THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION |
| power drive. The psyche thinks: If I assert myself and my power, my omnipotence, my invulnerability, nothing | 86 THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION IN CONFLICT |
| one point of eternity, if I may express myself in such a very paradoxical way. The West | 87 THE NEXT PHASE ON THE PATH; QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| self-will, of my limited outlook, and I open myself so that the divine can come to me | 88 RELIGION: TRUE AND FALSE |
| will be formed saying, I must not allow myself to feel if I wish to prevent the | 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION |
| I am horrible and cannot like or respect myself. Since this is too painful to bear, I | 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS |
| ability. QUESTION: I am confused about moralizing with myself regarding certain superstitions. On the one hand, I | 91 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| God. I wanted it in order to develop myself. But do you really develop because you experience | 91 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| the surface again. And I'm becoming tired of myself in this way. I don't want to go | 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION |
| effect does it have on others and on myself? What unproductive or even destructive effect does it | 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION |
| destructive effect does it have on others and myself? If it is not genuine, what are the | 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION |
| for me repeatedly in different degrees. I find myself, for example, sometimes impatient with people who do | 96 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS; COMMENTS ON LAZINESS AS SYMPTOM OF SELF-ALIENATION |
| then should I face all these truths about myself? Such reaction indicates exactly the attitude of perfectionism | 97 PERFECTIONISM OBSTRUCTS HAPPINESS -- MANIPULATION OF EMOTIONS |
| to your questions. QUESTION: In my work on myself I have found that because I need to | 104 INTELLECT AND WILL AS TOOLS OR HINDRANCES OF SELF-REALIZATION |
| have found that because I need to justify myself for what I do, I condemn myself as | 104 INTELLECT AND WILL AS TOOLS OR HINDRANCES OF SELF-REALIZATION |
| justify myself for what I do, I condemn myself as well. I realize that this is a | 104 INTELLECT AND WILL AS TOOLS OR HINDRANCES OF SELF-REALIZATION |
| for the purpose of I want to know myself, that is good, constructive, and realistic. But when | 104 INTELLECT AND WILL AS TOOLS OR HINDRANCES OF SELF-REALIZATION |
| warm, loving feelings? If I do not guard myself and allow myself to feel, I will suffer | 107 THREE ASPECTS THAT PREVENT LOVING |
| If I do not guard myself and allow myself to feel, I will suffer. It is true | 107 THREE ASPECTS THAT PREVENT LOVING |
| Then I found out that I don't love myself, so how can I love others? I felt | 108 FUNDAMENTAL GUILT FOR NOT LOVING -- OBLIGATIONS |
| self. Question yourself: Do I wish to pamper myself? Do I wish to be in self-pity? Or | 109 SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HEALTH THROUGH RESTITUTION FOR REAL GUILT |
| self-pity? Or can I just calmly look at myself with the negative tendencies that exist side by | 109 SPIRITUAL AND EMOTIONAL HEALTH THROUGH RESTITUTION FOR REAL GUILT |
| help me most in this? Do I deceive myself when I wish to believe that any activity | 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY |
| is in me. What is my attitude toward myself in this admission? If I want to persist | 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY |
| that I lack the courage to look at myself, rather than pretend the opposite? Do I have | 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY |
| courageous and utterly willing to look truthfully at myself, while other areas may exist where the opposite | 114 STRUGGLE: HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY |
| to admit to yourself, I can't yet bring myself to reveal and discuss this or that aspect | 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES |
| free admission, I am not ready to reveal myself. In this admission you are honest. You do | 117 SHAME: A LEGACY OF CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES, EVEN FAVORABLE ONES |
| am so selfish that I want everything for myself, I do not deserve to receive -- the | 121 DISPLACEMENT, SUBSTITUTION, SUPERIMPOSITION |
| I wish to be liked, I shall like myself better, because there will be no unfair exchange | 128 LIMITATIONS CREATED THROUGH ILLUSORY ALTERNATIVES |
| I now know that I have never committed myself really to anything, out of fear. I could | 129 WINNER VERSUS LOSER: INTERPLAY BETWEEN THE SELF AND CREATIVE FORCES |
| fear. I could feel that I can commit myself, but I fear that if I do and | 129 WINNER VERSUS LOSER: INTERPLAY BETWEEN THE SELF AND CREATIVE FORCES |
| this wonderful simplicity before? Why did I plague myself with all the unnecessary hardship? And you step | 130 FINDING TRUE ABUNDANCE BY GOING THROUGH YOUR FEAR |
| bothers me, or do I need to instruct myself? Instruction may also be necessary when it is | 131 INTERACTION BETWEEN EXPRESSION AND IMPRESSION |
| And then I would say, must I accommodate myself to the present circumstances or can I reach | 132 THE FUNCTION OF THE EGO IN RELATIONSHIP TO THE REAL SELF |
| you say in fear, I cannot look at myself in candor because then I may have to | 133 LOVE: NOT A COMMANDMENT, BUT SPONTANEOUS SOUL MOVEMENT OF THE INNER SELF |
| do harm to others and therefore ultimately to myself. This vague reaction also has to be brought | 133 LOVE: NOT A COMMANDMENT, BUT SPONTANEOUS SOUL MOVEMENT OF THE INNER SELF |
| this insensitivity, indifference, cruelty and rage, I make myself as numb as they must be. The guilt | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| is a protection. The psyche says, I stop myself from warm, loving feelings to protect myself. In | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| stop myself from warm, loving feelings to protect myself. In spite of the numbing effect on certain | 134 THE CONCEPT OF EVIL |
| be vanquished by it. I determine truth in myself, and I choose constructive ways. Such determination is | 136 THE ILLUSORY FEAR OF THE SELF |
| When I withhold from life, I withhold from myself. When I withhold from others, I withhold from | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| When I withhold from others, I withhold from myself. Whatever I already am, I want to let | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| no conflict, therefore I can give all of myself. I not only request help from deep within | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| me is error, and I decide to rid myself of this error and to give myself over | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| rid myself of this error and to give myself over to the divine powers to which I | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| to the divine powers to which I open myself totally. I deeply desire to understand the truth | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| is no conflict. I therefore can give of myself the best that I am. I surrender to | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| You then say, I must hold on to myself, for otherwise I will be damaged. Such control | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| would like to see that reality. I open myself up to that reality. I do not commit | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| that reality. I do not commit or obligate myself to anything except that I want to see | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| am extremely aware of cruelty and vulnerability in myself. My feelings are so strong when I feel | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| centered on the father image. I have asked myself lately if by doing so I have been | 140 CONFLICT OF POSITIVE VERSUS NEGATIVE ORIENTED PLEASURE AS THE ORIGIN OF PAIN |
| a resistance to change it. When I find myself in a situation where I could do this | 141 RETURN TO THE ORIGINAL LEVEL OF PERFECTION |
| I am unhappy, so I do not permit myself to be happy. ANSWER: The moment you can | 141 RETURN TO THE ORIGINAL LEVEL OF PERFECTION |
| moment because I do not want to expose myself? You avoid seeing that you hold back in | 145 RESPONDING TO THE CALL OF LIFE |
| am I not honest with life or with myself? Where do I cheat? Where do I impair | 148 POSITIVITY AND NEGATIVITY: ONE ENERGY CURRENT |
| pleasure is by experiencing a fear of losing myself in pleasure. Is that what you meant? ANSWER | 148 POSITIVITY AND NEGATIVITY: ONE ENERGY CURRENT |
| I want to look at the truth in myself. Anyone in the pathwork who pronounces these words | 150 SELF-LIKING: THE CONDITION FOR UNIVERSAL STATE OF BLISS |
| No, I will go no further. I let myself go as far as I have because it | 150 SELF-LIKING: THE CONDITION FOR UNIVERSAL STATE OF BLISS |
| your lecture upset me very much. I ask myself if this is so because I am near | 151 INTENSITY: AN OBSTACLE TO SELF-REALIZATION |
| feeling, If I do not hold on to myself I endanger myself. And once you are conscious | 152 CONNECTION BETWEEN THE EGO AND THE UNIVERSAL POWER |
| do not hold on to myself I endanger myself. And once you are conscious of this feeling | 152 CONNECTION BETWEEN THE EGO AND THE UNIVERSAL POWER |
| us begin with your questions. QUESTION: I find myself facing a repeating problem, which is the feeling | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| so I must keep the secret, even from myself, you also express the attitude that the world | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| to do. I will not run away from myself. I will not deceive myself. I will stop | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| run away from myself. I will not deceive myself. I will stop living a life of self-deception | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| advantage of this. QUESTION: I am now allowing myself and others total freedom. The effect has been | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| and tentative unconscious: I let go, I let myself be in pleasure. The possibility for it exists | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| I made this remarkable discovery of being free myself, of allowing myself full pleasure. I have no | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| remarkable discovery of being free myself, of allowing myself full pleasure. I have no more anxiety about | 156 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| universal law, so that I do not give myself to the divine within me? In the last | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| Where is the violation? Where do I keep myself separated? Where do I impair my integrity -- | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| direct or indirect way? Where do I delude myself about myself? Where do I not want to | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| indirect way? Where do I delude myself about myself? Where do I not want to give of | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| Where do I not want to give of myself -- in some way? These are the questions | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| becoming aware of some negative chain reactions in myself and of the harm they do. I realize | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| to reflexes. I also recognize how I manipulated myself in producing false fears. The moment I could | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| other aspects that I ignore because I close myself to a wider reality? This is one area | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| Ask yourself, Now, here is pain. I let myself feel this pain. Is it really as painful | 163 MIND ACTIVITY AND MIND RECEPTIVITY |
| completely responsible for the life I shape for myself. No one else can determine my life, my | 164 FURTHER ASPECTS OF POLARITY -- SELFISHNESS |
| my growth, my happiness. I will not allow myself to subtly hitch this responsibility onto others by | 164 FURTHER ASPECTS OF POLARITY -- SELFISHNESS |
| with my false unselfishness, through enslavement, through making myself feel so unselfish because I abdicate my rights | 164 FURTHER ASPECTS OF POLARITY -- SELFISHNESS |
| I do not want to give anything of myself. Whenever I feel threatened by rejection, criticism, frustration | 166 PERCEIVING, REACTING, EXPRESSING |
| my life. I will not withhold anything of myself. I want to contribute to the cosmic unfoldment | 166 PERCEIVING, REACTING, EXPRESSING |
| instead of tensing up against it and freezing myself, I will endure what I feel. I will | 167 FROZEN LIFE CENTER BECOMES ALIVE |
| life, if it exists. I will not deceive myself, though, by pretending that I feel the truth | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| want it my way. I do not give myself over to the universe. This is ungenerous and | 168 TWO BASIC WAYS OF LIFE: TOWARD AND AWAY FROM THE CENTER |
| for what makes me feel really bad about myself. See how honest and conscientious I am that | 171 SPIRITUAL LAWS |
| awareness of I do not like and respect myself. People are constantly confronted with an inner, and | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| which I choose to react negatively, destructively, making myself hopeless, complaining and feeling angry about it? This | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| go beyond the life experience I have given myself until now by taking for granted that it | 175 CONSCIOUSNESS: FASCINATION WITH CREATION |
| my heart and with the best investment of myself, to find the cause and change it. Therefore | 179 CHAIN REACTIONS IN THE DYNAMICS OF CREATIVE LIFE SUBSTANCE |
| without negativities or blocks. I want to give myself completely in love. I want to have health | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| want to shed all illusions I have about myself, for this is the price for leading such | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| in which I am too self-indulgent to face myself and change, and choose rather to suffer, with | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| pay the price. I am willing to involve myself deeply in living fully, giving as much as | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| am willing to face unflattering, undesirable truths about myself, even at the apparently greatest expense, that of | 181 THE MEANING OF THE HUMAN STRUGGLE |
| is hidden that I ought to know about myself, whatever negativity and destructiveness there is should be | 182 PROCESS OF MEDITATION (MEDITATION FOR THREE VOICES: EGO, LOWER SELF, HIGHER SELF) |
| open. I want to see it, I commit myself to seeing it, regardless of the hurt to | 182 PROCESS OF MEDITATION (MEDITATION FOR THREE VOICES: EGO, LOWER SELF, HIGHER SELF) |
| sufficiently that I can wait and will strengthen myself along the way to cope well with the | 182 PROCESS OF MEDITATION (MEDITATION FOR THREE VOICES: EGO, LOWER SELF, HIGHER SELF) |
| rebellion. I know I have this trait in myself, but I still react to it negatively. I | 183 THE SPIRITUAL MEANING OF CRISIS |
| will do it through me. I will make myself a willing, receptive channel for this to happen | 183 THE SPIRITUAL MEANING OF CRISIS |
| I overspend money. I negate that aspect of myself completely. Can you help me? ANSWER: This is | 184 THE MEANING OF EVIL AND ITS TRANSCENDENCE |
| perfect before I can accept, love, trust, esteem myself, you must express an identical attitude toward the | 185 MUTUALITY: A COSMIC PRINCIPLE AND LAW |
| my life? What would I want different in myself, in my personality? How would I like it | 186 VENTURE IN MUTUALITY: HEALING FORCE TO CHANGE NEGATIVE INNER WILL |
| that knows more is possible than I allow myself to experience? I emphasize again, we are not | 186 VENTURE IN MUTUALITY: HEALING FORCE TO CHANGE NEGATIVE INNER WILL |
| right to exist and therefore I must punish myself out of existence. Since this conflict is too | 189 SELF-IDENTIFICATION DETERMINED THROUGH STAGES OF CONSCIOUSNESS |
| longer, but want to give the best of myself to life. I do not need my spitefulness | 195 IDENTIFICATION WITH THE SPIRITUAL SELF TO OVERCOME NEGATIVE INTENTIONALITY |
| the question, How am I going to extricate myself from my identification with my lower self? When | 195 IDENTIFICATION WITH THE SPIRITUAL SELF TO OVERCOME NEGATIVE INTENTIONALITY |
| want to be able to take care of myself, because if I do, I let my parents | 196 COMMITMENT: CAUSE AND EFFECT |
| am so bad that I can never exonerate myself. Both these attitudes are untruthful -- and therefore | 196 COMMITMENT: CAUSE AND EFFECT |
| admit what is evil, I want to confront myself and dispense with the pretenses, which are after | 197 ENERGY AND CONSCIOUSNESS IN DISTORTION: EVIL |
| all nothing but lies. I want to expand myself and bring forth the best in me, so | 197 ENERGY AND CONSCIOUSNESS IN DISTORTION: EVIL |
| I anxious? Where do I have problems with myself, with life, with others? No matter how easy | 200 THE COSMIC FEELING |
| conscious of them. It can help me lift myself out of the groove that has been set | 201 DEMAGNETIZING NEGATIVE FORCE FIELDS -- PAIN OF GUILT |
| you. I punish you most effectively by making myself the victim, so you cannot blame or catch | 202 PSYCHIC INTERACTION OF NEGATIVITY |
| and have no pleasure. So I must force myself to love. Another mental level may simultaneously say | 207 THE SPIRITUAL SYMBOLISM AND SIGNIFICANCE OF SEXUALITY |
| be the person I would like to share myself with and to whom I would like to | 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD |
| whom I would like to give all of myself. If you are that person, I know that | 213 THE SPIRITUAL AND THE PRACTICAL MEANING OF LET GO, LET GOD |
| of creation itself. This is why I repeat myself. It will help you to perceive this process | 215 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS CONTINUED -- PROCESS IN THE NOW |
| give you what you need and to make myself understood. This is not easy, for I usually | 219 CHRISTMAS MESSAGE -- MESSAGE TO THE CHILDREN |
| other part, let's say the sweet part of myself, the child's voice that was squashed, I am | 220 REAWAKENING FROM PRE-INCARNATORY ANESTHESIA |
| ask: What do I need to see in myself? Where am I still blind? What can you | 220 REAWAKENING FROM PRE-INCARNATORY ANESTHESIA |
| see it? I would rather go on deceiving myself. This is a very typical obstruction. It is | 221 FAITH AND DOUBT IN TRUTH OR DISTORTION |
| of functioning as being destructive, negative, undesirable for myself and others -- it cannot be either the | 221 FAITH AND DOUBT IN TRUTH OR DISTORTION |
| me, even if I have not yet experienced myself as a divine reality. If that possibility exists | 221 FAITH AND DOUBT IN TRUTH OR DISTORTION |
| could be expressed like this: Here I see myself wanting to be destructive. I see the pain | 222 TRANSFORMATION OF THE LOWER SELF |
| temporarily inactive is advisable, and I recommend it myself. But to treat the mind as if it | 224 CREATIVE EMPTINESS |
| from one extreme to the other and deny myself a sense of harmony. ANSWER: There are several | 228 BALANCE |
| me that would justify my appreciating and loving myself, that deserves esteem and fulfillment? Such questions are | 233 THE POWER OF THE WORD |
| I'm just beginning to see and feel in myself. It's a place in me that I have | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| to be able to confront this place in myself and find the strength to go into and | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| really don't want to know the truth about myself or about anything else. This refusal to look | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| the truth manifests in confusion, in lying to myself and to others, to alienation from myself and | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| to myself and to others, to alienation from myself and from others, and in a very strong | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| to giving, to changing, to taking responsibility for myself as a woman. Along with all of this | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| does deeply want to know the truth about myself and that wants to acquaint myself with my | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| truth about myself and that wants to acquaint myself with my lower self and my higher self | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| help me sustain my commitment, to look into myself for the truth, to going through whatever emotions | 235 THE ANATOMY OF CONTRACTION |
| choose to be honest. What I say to myself must be what I really mean on the | 236 THE SUPERSTITION OF PESSIMISM |
| going a lot into my ego. I find myself thinking that I'm better than others. I would | 236 THE SUPERSTITION OF PESSIMISM |
| might be: I do not wish to set myself above others. If a part of me desires | 236 THE SUPERSTITION OF PESSIMISM |
| fulfilled now, I have the courage to confront myself and find out the meaning. The meaning is | 236 THE SUPERSTITION OF PESSIMISM |
| that will come through prayer. QUESTION: I find myself in a state of being very aware of | 239 CHRISTMAS LECTURE 1975 |
| you speak in unison these words: I commit myself to the will of God. I give my | 241 DYNAMICS OF MOVEMENT AND RESISTANCE TO ITS NATURE |
| and abstractly, but would now like to address myself more specifically to the new phase of expansion | 246 TRADITION: ITS DIVINE AND DISTORTED ASPECTS |
| used to rationalize keeping secrets: If I reveal myself, I will not be understood, or I will | 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY |
| of self-exposure. The fear says, If I show myself as I really am, they will not love | 252 PRIVACY AND SECRECY |
| is well in this world. I now address myself to individuals who do believe in and can | 253 CONTINUE YOUR STRUGGLE AND CEASE ALL STRUGGLE |
| although I am solely responsible to do it myself, yet I need others, as well as God | 258 PERSONAL CONTACT WITH JESUS CHRIST-POSITIVE AGGRESSION-REAL MEANING OF SALVATION |