| Disillusionment.............5 | |
| your idea of it. Unconsciously, you struggle against disillusionment as long as possible and strain even harder | 71 REALITY AND ILLUSION CONCENTRATION EXERCISES |
| identify with your idealized self-image, the harder the disillusionment whenever life brings you into a position where | 83 THE IDEALIZED SELF-IMAGE |
| Each is a constant source of pain and disillusionment regarding the self, and therefore brings on an | 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS |
| is it, this is final, until your next disillusionment. And since the world is good and beautiful | 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS |
| you from illusion -- and the pain of disillusionment. The specific manner of the pathwork offers wonderful | 212 CLAIMING THE TOTAL CAPACITY FOR GREATNESS |
| Disinclination..............7 | |
| often overemphasized as a compensation for the inner disinclination to pay the price in a deeper and | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| misinterpret truth; and when life and their own disinclination to face themselves catch up with them, they | 61 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS |
| It shows the superficial approach of humanity: people's disinclination to think. Your science today may find certain | 101 THE DEFENSE |
| if pronouncing such words, you feel an inner disinclination, a no-current, or a resistance, then you know | 138 THE HUMAN PREDICAMENT OF DESIRE FOR, AND FEAR OF, CLOSENESS |
| both yield no salvation whatever. Notice the initial disinclination to question your assumptions concerning any problematic issue | 143 UNITY AND DUALITY |
| is not clearly conceived at the outset, your disinclination to experience painful feelings will inadvertently lead you | 190 IMPORTANCE OF EXPERIENCING ALL FEELINGS, INCLUDING FEAR - DYNAMIC STATE OF LAZINESS |
| position of a persecuted victim. The stronger your disinclination to admit the negative intentions, the more you | 196 COMMITMENT: CAUSE AND EFFECT |
| Disinclined.................7 | |
| eros enables people to do things they are disinclined to do otherwise; things that are closely linked | 44 THE FORCES OF LOVE, EROS, AND SEX |
| several additional reasons for it, feeling undeserving and disinclined to pay the price are the two basic | 56 CAPACITY TO WISH -- HEALTHY AND UNHEALTHY MOTIVES IN DESIRE |
| in you even though you may otherwise be disinclined to be competitive. You want to compete with | 74 CONFUSIONS AND HAZY MOTIVATIONS |
| within. If you can verify that you are disinclined to give to others, and even where you | 98 WISHFUL DAYDREAMS |
| insist that it will, simply because you are disinclined to accept life as it is and yourself | 192 REAL AND FALSE NEEDS |
| relationships realistically. They are incapable of, or rather disinclined to, recognize that their experiences, as well as | 196 COMMITMENT: CAUSE AND EFFECT |
| open to a truth that you felt hitherto disinclined to accept. But truth can fill you only | 246 TRADITION: ITS DIVINE AND DISTORTED ASPECTS |
| Disintegrate................16 | |
| one of the subtle bodies that will, eventually, disintegrate. Is that clear, do you understand that? I | 21 THE FALL |
| But, my friends, this wall must one day disintegrate if you want to be whole and truly | 47 THE WALL WITHIN |
| them and substitute for them and let them disintegrate without the person who helps in this work | 89 EMOTIONAL GROWTH AND ITS FUNCTION |
| unconnected with an organic inner content, it must disintegrate. If it exists on faulty premises based on | 210 VISUALIZATION PROCESS FOR GROWING INTO THE UNITIVE STATE |
| Your scientists know that whole planetary systems explode, disintegrate and re-form. The same is true of everything | 214 PSYCHIC NUCLEAR POINTS |
| by life. So even when matter seems to disintegrate, it is not lifeless. It merely pursues an | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| The body that has been animated seems to disintegrate from the point of view of the limited | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| no balancing consciousness, no balancing law, everything would disintegrate. All the natural laws that you know, and | 228 BALANCE |
| into one another and the whole system would disintegrate. The same holds true for the microcosm of | 228 BALANCE |
| not prevail, all your cells and particles would disintegrate; your physical structure could not hold together. All | 228 BALANCE |
| is taken from you, you are going to disintegrate into an evil person. Now, the lower self | 239 CHRISTMAS LECTURE 1975 |
| no laws and no boundaries, the world would disintegrate in chaos and destruction. What keeps the planets | 240 ASPECTS OF THE ANATOMY OF LOVE: SELF-LOVE, STRUCTURE, FREEDOM |
| commandments and laws. This beautiful reality began to disintegrate when, as is inevitable in human nature, the | 247 THE MASS IMAGES OF JUDAISM AND CHRISTIANITY |
| ever lost, that nothing can ever disappear or disintegrate into nothingness. You will recognize these symbols as | 258 PERSONAL CONTACT WITH JESUS CHRIST-POSITIVE AGGRESSION-REAL MEANING OF SALVATION |
| does it go? It seems to disappear, to disintegrate, to no longer exist. From your vantage point | 258 PERSONAL CONTACT WITH JESUS CHRIST-POSITIVE AGGRESSION-REAL MEANING OF SALVATION |
| But you know that the water does not disintegrate into nothingness. It continues to be, to exist | 258 PERSONAL CONTACT WITH JESUS CHRIST-POSITIVE AGGRESSION-REAL MEANING OF SALVATION |
| Disintegrates...............9 | |
| when you die, not only your physical body disintegrates but the outer subtle body as well at | 40 MORE ON IMAGE-FINDING: A SUMMARY |
| will be gone after the outer subtle body disintegrates. But if you use it to integrate your | 40 MORE ON IMAGE-FINDING: A SUMMARY |
| still hidden. QUESTION: After death, the physical body disintegrates. And after that one of the subtle bodies | 51 IMPORTANCE OF FORMING INDEPENDENT OPINIONS |
| other subtle bodies. After death, this etheric double disintegrates -- not always immediately, but after some time | 76 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS (Compiled from Private Sessions and Earlier Lectures) |
| the same for all. When a stellar system disintegrates, it is because contrary forces are at work | 124 THE LANGUAGE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS |
| and fearfully holding the self together splits and disintegrates the psyche. The more the universal forces flow | 133 LOVE: NOT A COMMANDMENT, BUT SPONTANEOUS SOUL MOVEMENT OF THE INNER SELF |
| applies to an object: when it rots or disintegrates, the energy within it has been arrested. This | 184 THE MEANING OF EVIL AND ITS TRANSCENDENCE |
| at intervals from the life manifestation. As matter disintegrates, it has already been spiritualized by having possessed | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| When the contraction occurs, life withdraws and matter disintegrates. Although I have spoken about this before, you | 246 TRADITION: ITS DIVINE AND DISTORTED ASPECTS |
| Disintegration..............9 | |
| of the inverted power must be chaos, separation, disintegration, confusion, suffering, and an inner division and numbness | 139 DEADENING OF THE LIVE CENTER THROUGH MISINTERPRETATION OF REALITY |
| of an aggrandized ego condition is preferable to disintegration, which is inevitable when the outer, ego personality | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| It merely pursues an inverted, indirect route. The disintegration of matter will bring it together again in | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| you must realize that the very process of disintegration and reintegration is a movement that leads toward | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| fear of punishment, fear of death and the disintegration of the cell structure that falls into a | 226 APPROACH TO SELF -- SELF-FORGIVENESS WITHOUT CONDONING THE LOWER SELF |
| organization. The greatness of divine law is that disintegration is simply a step toward integration. Everything leads | 228 BALANCE |
| and becomes overemphasized or underemphasized, chaos and temporary disintegration result. The balancing factor reveals the richness, the | 228 BALANCE |
| a temporary, illusory imbalance, leading to chaos and disintegration. But because the whole movement has an all- | 228 BALANCE |
| all- encompassing meaning and purpose, the chaos and disintegration are only temporary. The imbalance that the onward | 228 BALANCE |
| Dislike.....................41 | |
| now may be indifferent or whom you even dislike. This loving connection will, in ever growing expansion | 6 THE HUMAN ROLE IN THE SPIRITUAL AND MATERIAL UNIVERSES |
| next step is easier. The recognition that you dislike putting aside your ego or your vanity, or | 11 SELF-KNOWLEDGE -- THE GREAT PLAN -- THE SPIRIT WORLD |
| whom you do not like. The more you dislike them, the more you should pray for them | 36 PRAYER |
| reactions followed. One can then always rationalize one's dislike. If there was no particular incident, just try | 37 ACCEPTANCE, RIGHT AND WRONG WAY -- DIGNITY IN HUMILITY |
| both were hurt, and why there is a dislike. Always both parties are hurting. If you can | 37 ACCEPTANCE, RIGHT AND WRONG WAY -- DIGNITY IN HUMILITY |
| one with the authority, much as I may dislike that authority, I am safe. The belief in | 47 THE WALL WITHIN |
| definite law-breaker to the point of acute resentment, dislike, and intolerance toward this particular authority? ANSWER: I | 47 THE WALL WITHIN |
| for or against something, because we like or dislike it, regardless of its intrinsic merit. ANSWER: Exactly | 73 COMPULSION TO RECREATE AND OVERCOME CHILDHOOD HURTS |
| very similar aspect or attitude. The stronger you dislike it in yourself, the more you project the | 77 SELF-CONFIDENCE: ITS TRUE ORIGIN AND WHAT PROHIBITS IT |
| it in yourself, the more you project the dislike on others. The more it is hidden, the | 77 SELF-CONFIDENCE: ITS TRUE ORIGIN AND WHAT PROHIBITS IT |
| you put it out of sight. You also dislike yourself for your dependency, which makes you feel | 80 COOPERATION, COMMUNICATION, UNION |
| which say that one must never resent, despise, dislike, blame, find fault with others, and so on | 84 LOVE, POWER, SERENITY AS DIVINE ATTRIBUTES AND AS DISTORTIONS |
| mature in this area. You may regret or dislike any material disadvantage resulting from the setback, but | 85 DISTORTIONS OF THE INSTINCTS OF SELF-PRESERVATION AND PROCREATION |
| help feeling at any given time and then dislike all of yourself for it, as you so | 90 MORALIZING -- DISPROPORTIONATE REACTIONS -- NEEDS |
| while a defense against exposure brings forth contempt, dislike, rejection, and fear, and is bound to make | 101 THE DEFENSE |
| be avoided in day-to-day communications. People would not dislike each other so easily. They would not fear | 101 THE DEFENSE |
| have to defend, often makes you fear and dislike others. So does the erroneous hurt you suffer | 101 THE DEFENSE |
| diminishes your value. Another cause of fear and dislike of others is the erroneous feeling of inadequacy | 101 THE DEFENSE |
| in the process of transforming whatever makes you dislike yourself, whether or not you are aware of | 145 RESPONDING TO THE CALL OF LIFE |
| of the process of self-realization, since people often dislike themselves for the wrong reasons. I have pointed | 150 SELF-LIKING: THE CONDITION FOR UNIVERSAL STATE OF BLISS |
| understanding, brotherhood in the real sense is inevitable. Dislike is only a superficial factor, and you know | 151 INTENSITY: AN OBSTACLE TO SELF-REALIZATION |
| Could you comment on this? ANSWER: Yes. Such dislike of people -- including yourself, of course, since | 161 UNCONSCIOUS NEGATIVITY ENDANGERS SURRENDER OF EGO TO INVOLUNTARY PROCESSES |
| do not think much of yourself. You may dislike yourself for some traits and attitudes, but this | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| being able to pinpoint the specific traits you dislike in yourself. Once you feel, however vaguely, that | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| admitting your undesirable traits means that you must dislike and reject your entire self. You fail to | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| about deserving happiness because I, possibly quite justifiably, dislike certain traits in me? But don't you then | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| essentially be anything else but that which you dislike, you have to hold on to it nevertheless | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| holding on to aspects in themselves they thoroughly dislike. They seem unable to help it and thus | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| holding on to the very facets you do dislike, for they seem to represent your essence. This | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| your real, final, fixed self is what you dislike. As long as that is the case, you | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| thinking and feeling change those attitudes you now dislike so much. When I talk about new ways | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| helpful. Put down in writing everything that you dislike about yourself. Have it down in black and | 174 SELF-ESTEEM |
| display the opposite of what you reject and dislike in yourself. These coverups are actually infinitely more | 176 OVERCOMING NEGATIVITY |
| of you to truly understand that what you dislike most in yourself is essentially a highly desirable | 184 THE MEANING OF EVIL AND ITS TRANSCENDENCE |
| is essentially a highly desirable, creative power. You dislike it because it is not desirable in the | 184 THE MEANING OF EVIL AND ITS TRANSCENDENCE |
| make the next connection. Investigate what you really dislike in your life. What would you like changed | 196 COMMITMENT: CAUSE AND EFFECT |
| of your personality you like least or even dislike outright. Your dislike may not be neurotic. You | 204 WHAT IS THE PATH? |
| you like least or even dislike outright. Your dislike may not be neurotic. You may be quite | 204 WHAT IS THE PATH? |
| be neurotic. You may be quite right to dislike these aspects, but you are not right in | 204 WHAT IS THE PATH? |
| distrust autonomy, to that exact degree you will dislike yourself and those on whom you depend. Thus | 225 EVOLUTIONARY STAGES OF INDIVIDUAL AND GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS |
| new levels of personality that you may first dislike or disdain, and learn to challenge them and | 238 THE PULSE OF LIFE ON ALL LEVELS OF MANIFESTATION |